Fuck , how many times do i have to explain to everyone that im over you .
You made me see that all this time i was fine without you.
When was the last time you even had a decent conversation with me or even tried?
But honestly , i really dont need you .. i have plenty of friends who care about me more than you

so valentines day just finish 2 hrs ago ...
im kinda happy its over .. but it just felt like a normal day to me

i look outside my window and i see this young couple , he hands roses to her
and she runs to him and give a huge hug ... i thought to myself .. has that ever happen to me
no , that couple was about my age .. i felt hurt cause i was home just watching people pass by
with roses in their hands. I know it feels really dumb to say this but .. every year valentines sucks , never one time has a guy said happy valentines day to me ...
but right now im kinda happy soomeone called me and said it :$ :)

so today ,i cried my heart out ...
i fought with my mom today , about how my life is...
she told me that i was lucky to live in this life , and all of a sudden i screamed out and said to her " I'm lucky , you call this lucky , living a life without a dad you think thats lucky. Never having the chance to be even called a my baby , my daughter or even a felling that my dad is protecting me.. im not lucky , mom .. you probably think i was happy my whole life but no im not , im hurting so much that i dont even know myself anymore" she looked at my and i see that she starts to tear up she says to me " Ive worked day and night just to help you , but you dont ever seem to appreciate it.. you think your life is so easy , i know that im a single mom and i didnt mean for it to happen , i just wanted you here in this world. I want you to be happy and living the life you want but now i know how you feel , you feel hurt , disgrace , mad, dissapointed." I run to my bed crying , thinking about the past ...My mom knocks on my door saying " Darling im sorry you feel this way but im tryign my best to make you happy " I open my door and look at her crying my eyes out " I know if dad was here our lives would of been so much easier , and do you wanna know the time i actually felt happy , was when you saved my life , but i just hate it how everyone ask me what has happen to my dad , and everytime i wanna tell them i just wanna start to cry, i know somewhere out there he is looking for me. I love my dad , no matter what he wanted to do to me . I know how life is mom and i know its not easy but all i want to know is how does it feel to be loved by a father? I just want to know that my father is looking for me out there and when he finds me im going to run into his arms and cry , and say to him why did you have to leave me? ... "

Now im here lying on my bed still crying i love you dad no matter what

just by watching what happen today , i dont want to be in a relationship .. and get hurt as much as she did . She deserves better , and boy your one of my bestfriend and she is too , but im taking her side .. you treated her wrong , and she did the right thing to hurt you back. I NEVER belived that you would let her hurt herself that way i thought you were going to be hers forever.I tried helping you because i knew you love that girl , deep down but just didnt show it. Now you hurt yourself so much more , with what happen and see her break down and cry. Youve dumped mostly 99% of girls in your life, but now its your turn to be dumped .. now you know how it feels to get hurt. I thought you loved her , and be with her no matter what. I thought you would be that guy who would always be there no matter what happens , not afraid to say what you have to say , and showed how much you loved her. But i guess i was wrong , Youve changed alot and i dont even know you anymore. When are you ever going to start caring ? Cause the best way to start is right now. You lost her you lost everything , i hope your happy cause thats the way you wanted it to be. I hope your hurt cause you deserve it you broke that girls heart.

i ignored you

hoping you knew im over you

but everyone says " he really wants a hug , go!"

Honestly , i was really feeling the way i felt before

im really over you , and maybe i dont want to be your friend

i have the feeling that , i need a break from you just for awhile and we can start all over

but i dont want to , because weve been friends for quite a long time and i dont want to restart that.

i feel like him !

Sometimes you can work it out
Sometimes you can't
Sometimes you're forced to watch everything fall apart inside of your hands
Sometimes leavin' is easy
Sometimes it ain't
Sometimes it hurts to know the loving you had was slowly fading away

You can say whatever you like
As long as we just say goodbye

Blame it on me
Say it's my fault
Say that I left you outside in the cold with a broken heart
I really don't care
I ain't cryin no more
Say I'm a liar a cheater
Say anything that you want
As long as it's over

I ain't a quitter
I just ain't the type
I tried to see it through
I tried to make it to the finishing line
Oooh you thought it was meant to be yeah
I admit so did I
Every once in a while you think you figured it out
Sometimes you're not right

You can say whatever you like
As long as we just say goodbye

Yes I love you but I really got to lose you
Freedom's where I want to be
Yes I'll probably always love you
But I'm moving
I got to do this for me