fuck , today at school everything was going so well ..
until you had to fucken tell " him " .. eugh .. ef you zantoza : P
anyways today all i could think about is you idk why .. very weird day ..
i tried my best not to but every minute your name just keep popping up
in my effin' head .. and its just so hard to let that name go away ..
is it because i like you to much OR is it because i love you to much ..
IDK .. im so confused i know just telling you wont do anything .. it wont change
anything .. wishes wont do anything nothing will only you .. and im not pushing you to
its just that i cant take it anymore .. i love you , i never stopped ..
i tried and you just keeping coming to my head .. thanks KYM for the pics -.- ENGLISH CLASS .. wow ..you guys are so nice friends -.- anyways back to my point
i bet you maay be reading this right now thinking that im to over addicted and shit
its just that is bunched in my head and i just had to let it all out .. i know you moved on but i havent .. i couldnt ... i TRIED soo hard .. but couldnt let that fricken feeling go .. look back at memories my friends saying stuff makes me realize about everything we've been through and shit and people telling me remember this remember that ugh .. its just so hard and once you start thinking about it you cant stop and that all you can think about its like a VIRUS .. HAHA .. anywyas
everyday all i can think about is you not talyour Lautner or something not anyone famous .. its YOU i think about , its you i miss , its you i love , its you i like name anything ! its all you .. *sigh* all i have to do is maybe wait .. wait in the future to find someone cuase right now .. all my heart is all on you .. : /
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your like a virus - Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 10:29 PM
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( 8 ) i shouldnt really miss you but i cant let go - Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @ 6:28 PM
I hope you're doing fine out there without me, 'cause I'm not doing so good without you. The things I thought you'd nver know about me were the things I guess you always understood.If it makes you smile, then why would you let it go? Now that you're gone, I seem to have more space then I know what to do with. Guess it's safe to say I miss you.
No one falls in love by choice, it's by chance. No one stays in love by chance, it's by WORK. No one falls out of love by chance, it's by choice. And if tomorrow you're still a friend, I'll stay up until 11:11 again. I haven't been this scared in a long time and I'm so unprepared Sometimes you can't help but wait around for the one person not worth waiting around for My HEAD says "who cares"? but my HEART says "I do". Beacuse my heart can't lie, Even if my face may try.Love can keep you up all night.You know, sometimes I sit and think of everything we've been though & what we've done & I think that if I were to have done it with someone else, it wouldn't have meant as much. Everyone has a secret that would break your heart. Remember that Every word you say, I feel like I should write it down And nobody knows that I still fall asleep thinking about you.Love me when I least deserve it. Beacause that's when I'll really need it. He's just another guy , I have to try to get over Because I knows I'm wasting my time..I've noticed that being with you I smile a little more often, You could have had the best of me, but I'm saving it for someone better. You know how it is,When you don't want to miss them,But you want them to miss you |
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im tired of waiting .. - @ 6:17 PM
I'm sorry for saying those things
I'm sorry for calling you 'the thing' I'm sorry that you dumped me I'm sorry i wasn't good enough I'm sorry for insulting you I'm sorry for being such a bitch im sorry x123232432 the reason i do these things Is that i just can't get over you I can't believe you think so low of me that i'd let you come between my friends I'm sorry that i still want you so Maybe I am selfish maybe i am waste like i think you said i'm sorry , i'm sorry , i'm sorry ! |
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i never knew .. - Sunday, February 22, 2009 @ 7:22 PM
& When i first met you i never would have
imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you i never would have thought that i would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or getting butteerflies in my stomach when someone metions your name when i first met you i never would've thought that i would LOVE YOU |
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L O V E - Thursday, February 19, 2009 @ 9:42 PM
"The most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen or even touched ; they must be felt in the heart ." I had a dream the other day that you'd driven me to madness Obviously I couldn't tell it was a dream I dreamt that , in frustration and despair I pulled the broken heart from my chest looked at it in half in millions of pieces I admit A small pieced saved , to appease the sniveling , sentimental moron Inside me who still hopes you'll come back, And i put that small saved piece in a box on my chest drawer. This was symbolic I woke up with a strange feeling of pleasure But I was just as miserable as when I brushed my teeth and gotten out of bed the night before I wished my dream was real You can't live without you. I wish I was an ostrich so I could bury my heart in the ground. |
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teenage love - Monday, February 16, 2009 @ 10:14 PM
Once in every girl's lifetime, she finds one perfect person with whom she falls hopelessly in love and lives happily ever after. That concept is a mere fallacy. Yes, people do have common interests, and, therefore, develop romantic involvements, but it is basic common sense that many of these relationships are more like "The Real World" rather than Romeo and Juliet. Couples do break up, and there are many reasons why ranging from cheating to abuse to parental disapproval.
In teenage relationships, a major reason why breakups are unavoidable is the lack of parental/ family approval. When the parent/family of one of the teenagers in the relationship forbids the relationship to continue, one of two things happens. The lovers are separated and eventually learn to move on with their lives, or the couple will rebel against the parent/family wishes. |
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Whats teenage love? - Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @ 5:13 PM
It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day.
It's passing each other between classes & stopping to say HI ,but ending running to your next class right before the bell rings. It's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders & you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest , her head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's teenage love, here to stay , here to play with our hears & never to go away... |
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( 8 ) thinking and dont know what to do - Tuesday, February 10, 2009 @ 8:37 PM
Now you know who i like and now you may be suprised or like shit .. because i know you dont like me .. its just that looking back at those memories got me thinking and shit .. erugh im sorry that i didnt tell you and you had to hear it from someone eles ahem.. which i dont know who you heard it from but shit .. its just that i was to ashamed to tell you the truth that i still truly like / may still love you .. erugh ..its just so hard to let go i guess ..
PS ; SANDROTTUAZON BESTFRIENDS FROM THE WESTSIDE (L) |
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Forget about me .. - Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 5:24 PM
You Said It Wasn't
Gonna Be Like It Was Before Then It Happened Again Pushing Me Back Out The Door Thought It Would Be Forreal This Time Love Me Forget About The Signs So Now What Do I Do Now, That I Know That We're Through Wish That I Could Move On Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong Just Like That And Then You're Gone Is This How You Wanted It To Be Everything You Had To Say Sent The Tears Right Down My Face Now I'm Trying To Escape The Misery Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around Then, Baby, Forget About Me Too Late, Sorry I Didn't Even Have The Chance You Said You Were Happy Baby, I Don't Understand Gave You Everything You Asked For And Was Ready To Give A Lot More I Would've Given The World Right In The Palm Of Your Hand Wish That I Could Move On Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong Just Like That And Then You're Gone Is This How You Wanted It To Be Everything You Had To Say Sent The Tears Right Down My Face Now I'm Trying To Escape The Misery Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around Then, Baby, Forget About Me Boy, My Heart Was True And That You Can't Deny Don't Be A Fool And Walk Away From All The Lies It's Up To You Cause Heaven Knows I've Tried Tell Me You're Still In Love Yeahhhh Ohh Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around Then, Baby, Forget About Me Forget About Me... |
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stressed - Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @ 7:29 PM
IM SO FUCKEN SORRY I HAD TO DO IT .. I JUST COULDNT THINK ANYMORE .. I JUSTED NEEDED TIME ALONE TO THINK ABOUT MY LIFE AND SEE WHERE ITS GOING ..
i just really cant think anymore so many things bad are happening in my life - failing grades - failing science - moms sick / hospital - wont be able to play sports - might be moving - and my dad leaving , all i have are my family .. i just really confused right now and i cant really think anymore .. thank you for everything .. that you did for me , i really appreciate you caring for me and still you are .. and for being my friend still i hope our friendship wont break .. cause i really will be upset if it does .. back to E . M . O |
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