I know that weve been through ups and downs and mostly downs put we always put them away and remember who we really are "best friends" but i feel like its all fading away .. that my bestfriend is fading away and i dont want that to happen.. I hate loosing a bestfriend espically you .. I cant loose another one .. i know im asking for to much but your the one who made me feel everything .. i felt happy when i was around you .. honestly , ever since you stopped calling i miss all your calls .. i dont know why .. but i just do i always have a voice inside of me telling me to call you but i always dont cause i dont wanna be a person bothering you and i dont wanna just call to say hi .. i wanna talk to you about things about life ,advice you use to give me that would lead me to a better path .. but i cant cause i dont know how to do that .. i dont know why this feels like this but it just does ..im trying my best to talk to you and try as hard to be bestfriends but i just cant .. you always go offline without saying goodbye .. we dont have our usual calls anymore .. the way we laughed because of stupid yo mama jokes .. ugs .. everything is comign back to me .. ALSO its summer and i remember that we planned to spend sometime in the summer togther but i dont think thats gunna happen theres never a good time to talk .. and right now its like stupid 5:03am .. and i cant even sleep .. i keep thinking about you .. i was gunna call you but i put it down because i didnt wanna bother you at this time your probably sleeping but yeah ..This is all fucked up how are we suppose to be friends if you dont even say hi when im right there waving at you? it that called friendship to you .. to me its called being not seen and even your bestfriend said hi to me and not even you , how are we suppose to be mother effin friends if you dont even do thins that friends do .. we cant jus pretend that everything is alright and just say hi when were on the phone and have like a effin 10second conversation and hanging up.. honestly what does friendship mean to you .. i really dont want to put up with your attitude.. i really miss mybestfriend